Wow! Where did 2010 go? It's crazy how time goes by so fast, within a blink of an eye. I haven't posted a blog in quite some time:(. This year has been full of up's and downs just like every year, but this year will be unforgettable for a few reasons.
First of all I would like to say how GRATEFUL I am to have such a wonderful family. It's been such a blessing to be surrounded by the one's who really care about you and are ALWAYS there for you no matter what obstacles your facing. They are such great examples to us and I want them to know how much we really do love them.
It's been a crazy year full of unforgettable memories. Here are some of the things that we did/went through that really made it memorable.
February 12, 2010
Our little man Kamden turns 2 years old. It still blows my mind thinking about how fast he's grown up. He's not a baby anymore, but a toddler who is very independent and knows what he wants. He's such a fun little boy to have around the house bringing much love and entertainment to our family. I wouldn't have it any other way. He's full of personality and is probably one of the happiest kids I've ever seen. I'm so lucky to be able to raise him and teach him the many things about this life and what we have to look forward to in the future. We really had fun with his birthday party this year by theming it out as "Monkey Bash". Thanks to everyone who came out and celebrated this special day with us.
April 29, 2010
Daddy goes bye-bye for 6 weeks. In the last year and 1/2 we've hardly been able to have any family time, since Spencer had full time school and work. I on the other hand was working early mornings 7 days a week doing hospice. We hardly saw each other and if we did I would have to visit him at work by bringing him in some lunch. It made it especially rough by having to take Kamden from place to place and not having a set caregiver. I always wanted to be home for my kids and be the MOM who was always there no matter what. We finally decided this should come to an end and thought of an alternative route by doing summer sales. We had been thinking about it here and there the last few years, but figured it was too hard leaving our home and moving to a new place momentarily. We finally decided to take the risk and see what happens. Spencer went out to San Jose, California for summer sales with Clark Pest Control. We weren't able to go down with him since we had a few things holding us back. It was a hard 6 weeks trying to juggle everything being a single parent. It was then I really appreciated everything Spencer did for our family and what help he was to me. We both really missed having daddy around:(. It just wasn't the same.
May-August
What an AMAZING experience this has been! Here we are in California doing summer sales and loving every minute of it. What a memorable time for our family! It was such a good change for us leaving the Utah bubble and seeing what life really had in store. I had a little bit of a culture shock when we first arrived since there weren't too many whites. I felt like I was the minority, but luckily it didn't take long to get use to. Spencer did an AMAZING job out there! We're so proud of him and everything he sacrifices for us. He is truly the BEST Dad and Hubby we could ever ask for. We love you!
We really tried to have fun while we were out there. We had both families come out and visit us. We did so many things we would of never done back in Utah. We were able to visit San.Francisco, Santa Cruz Beach, Monterey Bay, Six Flags, and much more. It was really fun having our family out there and spending some quality time together.
Now we are both able to go to school and not have to worry about working full-time. It's been such a blessing in our lifes and are grateful for the success we had out there with such a GREAT company.
August-September
We've had alot going on these last 6 weeks of summer and will be unforgettable. We both started a new semester of school. I decided to go back to school and get a few credits done, since we qualifed for grants with both of us going to school. I've always loved learning and I'm so happy to be able to get an extended education in before we have more kids.
Spencer on the other hand is rocking it out. He's been taking some of the hardest classes anyone can take and pulling out A's in every class. Is he AMAZING or what? He's such a hard worker and does well in everything he does. We're so proud of him! He'll be taking the MCAT this April if not earlier, to see where we'll be headed for in 2012. He's got alot ahead of him with all the volunteer work, dr. shadowing and misc. things he needs to do. We really want to get accepted to UofU that way we don't have to move far away from the family and school will be alot less expensive being a Utah resident. We know whatever happens is suppose to happen and will be up to whatever life has in store for our family.
Over the last year and 1/2 I've been asked countless times of "When are you going to have a brother or sister for Kamden"?. This question is very hard to answer when you have no control over it. All I can say is Kamden is a miracle baby. The Dr's don't even know how I got pregnant with him. It was a complete MIRACLE! We have been trying for the last 2 years with no success. I finally had a feeling that I wasn't going to be able to do this by myself. I needed help and that was when I finally decided to call Utah Fertility and set up an appointment for Sep 2. I was then diagnosed with PolyCystic Ovaries meaning I wasn't able to ovulate by myself. My chances of getting pregnant were 0%. We then were told to start up on cycles with lots of medicine,ultrasounds, and monitoring the eggs. We were all for it with the hopes of having another little one join our family. I did the first cycle with success having the outcome of being pregnant, but I didn't feel like it was healthy pregancy. I was so sick and cramping all the time. They had oversimulated me and it was a very hard environment for the babies(Yes, I was possibly pregnant with twins). I had a really hard time facing the outcome of possibly losing 2 babies. I was in so much pain and discomfort the last cycle that I almost didn't want to go through it again. We talked about it and figured it's the only choice we had. Now here I am on my 2nd cycle and I responded much better then the first. I haven't been too sick and the I'm less resistant to the medication. I just had follow up and come to find out we have 8 mature eggs meaning I could be Ocoto-mom:). This would not be a healthy pregnancy nor would I want 8 babies at one time. Who could do that? I'll be going into a minor surgery tomorrow to have a follicle reduction and reducing the eggs to 2-3 eggs. We're really hoping this works out this time and that it may be a healthier pregnancy. I never realized how much has to go into having a baby. I always thought it was easy and you could get pregnant any time. This has really been one of the hardest trials I've ever had to face. I know the lord has a plan and that whatever happens is "His Will". I need to accept whatever happens and know that the lord knows what's best although it's hard to believe at times. This whole experience has helped our family grow closer together and we're so GRATEFUL for Kamden and the sweet spirit he is. He makes our family whole. I love both my hubby and little man so much it's hard to put it in words. They are "My Whole World".
I've been keeping this to myself for quiet sometime and not wanting anyone to know, but I realized I'm not the only one going through this and if there is anyone facing the same challenges we could be there for each other. It's a hard thing to go through by yourself. I was really embarassed at first thinking "I'm not normal". "All I'll be is a little study/test for the Dr's", but all that is was negative thoughts and how are they going to help me. This has been an experience we will never forget. I have grown alot experiencing this trial and "Count My Many Blessings".
